Lumberpick

2 days till I get to see my boys and wife. The days have been moving by which is good. I went to church with Kyle last night. We walked in to the church and couldn't get in to the service area because someone was having trouble in the sanctuary. I heard some yelling but didn't tie the two together at first. A little later some people were rushing to the bathroom to get paper towels and a bunch of guys shuffled a fellow out to the lobby and laid him down and were checking him out. We found out later that one of the regulars had just changed his meds and it totally screwed him up. I've just come in contact recently with how bad a med change can screw a person up. Some of those things I've been so ignorant to.

Speaking of which. The service was about divorce. This is a topic I never really had any apathy for when I was a kid because I was raised in a family where this wasn't an issue and I went to a church where no one was divorced. But when you grow up and get out in to the real world you get to meet people that have had to deal with this and you see the pain, the anguish, the bitterness of the spouses, of the children.... and your view changes. I was reminded of that when the speaker asked, by a raise of hands how many people had been effected by parents being divorced. The percentage was pretty startling. People. Lots and lots of people with pain. All sorts of different pain. Pain that you would never know about in casual conversation if you were to talk to them. I'm just amazed at how much of it people hold inside. I guess I'm the same way when it comes to pain. I rarely share it. I guess we just have trouble sharing it. The strange thing is, how naturally pre-disposed we are to want to absorb other peoples pain. I don't know if it's genetics or what.

I went to lunch with Kyle today and he told me it was the one year anniversary of his mom's death. He didn't realize it was today. He thought it was a couple of days earlier but was made aware of it by some very early morning calls from family.

Life is so fulfilling and so bitter all at the same time.