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Very icy day today. Sunday. Kinda dreary and hard to stay upbeat.

Can't concentrate very well. Just figured I'd start typing for the sake of getting back to this thing. Saw the movie Garden State w/ Cherity last night. Good movie. Cherity liked it too. Just walked Seb. to sleep. He conked out pretty quick. Cherity's trying to Get O to sleep. He's a little more stubborn right now. Works been pretty hectic. Sometime I'd like to do something else. Sometimes I like it and sometimes I feel like I'm stuck and could find no way out. So...
maybe I should look and then I doubt myself there. I can't take a step down in pay raising a family. At least it doesn't seem like it. Maybe I should reconsider. I guess I'd have to find something I would love to do before I consider something like that. I'd like to work in an evironment w/ more positive personalities. Like sports or religon. ? Looking for a utopia I guess?? I'm not sure what that would be. I see a bit of negative in everything, partly because there always will be some negative in everything... being pragmatic. It'd be kind of fun to take a night class I think. Just to be around people in a less stressed and more energy filled environment. It'd be cool to have a job where all you were expected to do is to develop opinions on things... and get paid for it.... whatever I'm babbling and dreaming. Sometimes I think I should just pick something and attack it. Go back to school. Find a new career. Just looking for a fight or something to car and passion for (can I use that as a verb?...)

Question: If I got everything in order would I be happy? i.e. tithed, followed own rules, followed my heart,...


Maybe. Worth checking out ... happiness. HMMPH