It's negative day.

Negative Day is a self-prescribed rant or cynical blog entry. The idea of Negative Day reminds me of OR was inspired by a young couple I knew a few years ago that had a Swear Day which in turn allowed them to swear as much as they wanted to, but just on that day. They wouldn't swear because they were mad, but more-so as an excuse to swear for the fun of it. They enjoyed swearing! And! I met the couple through church. Good people, despite being foul-mouthed-for-fun. I thought it was hilarious to tell you the truth. They called it something like "Swear-Thursday" or something like that.

That is one draw back to having children. You can't have a "Swear Thursday". When you're a kid you can't swear because your parents will get on you and you can't swear when you grow up because your kids might hear. And if you swear in either occasion then your guilt-ridden and if your not.... well then you've probably got much worse problems than what I'm complaining about. But! I'm telling ya, you just can't win in life. You only get a small window of opportunity during college or between the time you leave your parents and have kids where you can let the colorful language fly.

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I'm actually at lunch right now listening to Modern World by Wolf Parade in my light-blue cubicle filled with hanging white papers and Formica covered table tops. I have a window. Yes, I GET a window. My window is about 4' by 4' and I can only see the sky and a few power lines but if I stand up I can see a bridge in to Wisconsin so I'm reassured that I will always have a quick escape out of Minnesota if I can't hack it. I've also learned from my skewed vantage point..er cubicle that just because your bicycle is on the other side of an exterior wall not more than 5 feet from you, it can still get stolen. (My new bike gets brought in to the building with me. Not sure why I didn't do that in the first place...)

I sit here each and every day taking calls from people about computers, hardware, our software, and anything else business oriented. I trouble shoot old and antiquated printers and dumb tubes called c-r-t's. I guide people on company policy.Get people's email hooked up to servers. I tell people the best way to create estimates. I tell them what the draw backs are. I tell people how to create reports on everything from commissions to inventory valuations to operating statements... blah blah blah blah. And of course this is the business world and since there's always a bigger fish...we are part of a group of businesses owned by a bigger business and I'm in a dept. that may no longer exist some day. Good thoughts right. I'll have to worry long and hard to keep my little bit of light blue carpeted heaven here. Actually, I don't mind my job. (I can't even be all that negative on "Negative Day"... hmmm... )

Let me try again...

I got a call today from a member from our church men's group. I had entered my name on a form about 3 or 4 months ago saying I would be interested in getting involved in the "men's group". It was sort of a depressing conversation actually. All the leaders who were involved, I was told, were gone and the guy was rather vague on details of why they were gone... not a good sign. The guy all but asked if I wanted to take a leadership role which I thought was laughable because I'm not good at giving answers. I'm looking for them... how am I supposed to give them? Also laughable because the guy doesn't know me from the devil. The only thing desirable about leading a group like that for me would be to shake things up and get asked to step down from my leadership position. That puts a mischievous smile on my face.

I've not been good at trying to convince anyone of anything. That whole last sentence is something I have issue with. I'm more of a give people the facts and let them make their own decision kind of guy. We all have to do that anyway don't we? ...Take the facts were given and decide...? Also, I can't articulate a thought without second guessing what I'm saying. I could say that "Truth is such and such" and the next thing I know I'm thinking "... but on the other hand..." I don't know. I'll have it figured out by the time I'm 40 I hope... and then I'll become some sort of motivational speaker. Yep, that's my plan....

Have a craptacular day!